Tuesday, April 14, 2009

So Many Thoughts, So Little Time

I just wanted to put up a quick post to let you all know that it may be longer between posts in the coming days. I have many thoughts, but little time to write them down. Why? Hmm...let me count the reasons:

1) My 4 older ones are keeping me busy with a few more activities outside the home
2) My 7 & 5 year olds are requiring more time spent with them as they learn and refine their reading and 'rithmatic skills
3) With the nicer weather, I am more inclined to get out and do something
4) I'm working out more which leaves my spare time even more limited
5) I need to be a more virtuous woman in meeting the needs of my home and family

I would love for you to check in once in a while to read what thoughts I do find time to share. I love you all.

Till next time,

Monday, April 6, 2009

Thoughts and Feelings - sorting them out

Note: This post is extremely vague, but writing it has helped me sort through my feelings.

Feelings of anger and bitterness well up in my heart, my being. I am tired of the "drama" in my life. I am tired of fighting these feelings. Sometimes, I want to pick up the phone and speak my mind to this person who has hurt my family members. But, then, a still small voice stops me. I know I'll just regret it. I think.

I am afraid the one who has acted badly for years will come out looking like the victim while another will be unjustly judged. But, then, I know it's all in God's hands.

It is in times like these my faith is tried. God has been faithful to show me His way is perfect. All things work together for good - in His time. I must remember that now.

Lord, help me to keep my eyes on You and trust Your will, Your plan, Your way. Man will fail me continually, but You are perfect. You are my Father. You are the Righteous Judge.

Day by day, hour by hour...giving it all to Him.