Monday, November 30, 2009
Leaning on God
As I got the pile of books out this evening to plan our school week, I suddenly realized all I do every single day to keep our family going.
Here's a simplified list: make sure chores are done and children have eaten in the morning, get little ones dressed, get everyone in their respective places for school (and continue to corral them there during the course of the morning), teach 2 children all of their subjects while fielding questions from the older 3 as they do their independent work, break up fights and instruct the littlest 2, make lunch, delegate clean-up, teach older children their lessons, figure out what's for supper then make it, delegate supper chores, laundry, getting younger children ready for bed, getting all children to bed at their scheduled bedtimes. These every day chores are always accompanied by other items that need to be done such as: making grocery lists, cutting coupons, finding time to go grocery shopping, answering phones, running a homeschool co-op, setting up meals for women who have babies at our church, calling friends whom I've not seen in a while, planning birthdays or holidays, cleaning, etc., etc., etc.
I do well when I don't think about all the things I need to do. I liken it to a piano player. He doesn't contemplate that he's moving both of his hands in opposite directions and that he literally has 10 different actions occuring at the same time. A good piano player often has songs memorized and does not meditate on each and every note as he plays it. Everything just moves fluidly with little problem. However, once he begins to really think about everything he is doing and every single note, that is when the mistakes tend to be made. That is how I felt today. As soon as I really began thinking about all the things I do and the fact that I am one person, I began to feel overwhelmed. Yet, only for a moment.
As my breaths became short as I felt my self beginning to drown under the pressure, I realized that I never can do anything without God. It is only by His strength that I can keep going. It is only by His grace that the plates can continue to spin without crashing to the floor. I am nothing without Him. I can do nothing without HIm. However, "I can do ALL things through Christ which strenghtheneth me"!!
I gave it to my Heavenly Father Who cares for me so deeply right then and there. Immediately, the burden lifted and I was able to take deeper breaths. It's going to be ok - because God is my strength in weakness.
The next time you stop to think of all the things you need to do, realize it is not you, but God who will get you through the day.
It's the only way us moms will remain sane!